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FILM: ‘The Invisible War’ Exposes U.S. Military’s Sexual Abuse Cover-Up


As a survivor of sexual abuse, I have always pondered why most people think rapists and sexual abusers are “the boogey man,” a scary, terrifying, stranger who lurks in alleys and dark parking lots stalking their next victim, the unwitting stranger.

Statistics show that most sexual abuse victims know their abuser and most abusers appear to be just like everybody else.  No one would ever suspect the abuser because of what he looks like, his type of job, the amount of money he makes, or having what many consider to be the picture-perfect family.

Sexual abuse is not a sexual act.  Rape is a heinous act of aggression for reasons other than sex, often out of jealousy or a control freak need to prove something — the worst kind of power-trip.  Women have been on the receiving end of systematic sexual abuse since the rise of patriarchal religion and governments and have often been powerless to get justice due to the religion or regime’s indifference to the victims’ plight.  The victims had no rights.

In fact, rape and sexual aggression have long been viewed as the right of the male, “punishing” his wife as he saw fit, just as he could beat, whip, or kill any other piece of property he owned.  Or worse, after defeating an enemy on the battlefield, raping the enemy’s women was just a part of the victor’s spoils of war.

In the 21st century, 40 years past the women’s movement, continued outrage over the Catholic Church’s pedophile priests, and the outing of bullying against LGBT youth, one area of awareness that has yet to see the light of day is the widespread sexual abuse within the United States military.  The cover-up of the abuse is pervasive, and the victims have been shamed while their rapists received promotions and medals of honor.

The women who join the military do so to contribute their skills to protecting our country and to provide for their families.  Our military is supposed to be the defender of the United States’ Constitution, our Bill of Rights, our laws, and our ideals of freedom, justice, and liberty.  These women did not join the military to be abused or ridiculed when they reported the abuse.  No one ever suspects that the “boogey man” is the man working beside you, or your boss, or a respected member of society, such as a “war hero.”

The new independent film, The Invisible War, has lifted the veil off the United States military’s cover-up of sexual abuse within the U.S. military branches — a true “War on Women.”  With a country that is tired of war and suspicious of government officials, The Invisible War exposes the extent of sexual abuse in the United States’ military with video testimonies from the victims juxtaposed with the abusers’ being awarded accolades and promotions — jobs and pay raises all paid for by our tax-dollars.

Having won the 2012 Audience Award at the prestigious Sundance Film Festival, this film should win the Academy Award for “Best Documentary.”  If you get the chance to see this film, DO IT.  See it.  Share the clip below on every social networking platform you are on.

The Invisible War opens in select cities today including New York, Los Angeles, San Francisco, and most appropriately, in our nation’s capital, Washington, D.C.  The film will open around the U.S. throughout the summer. For cities and theater listings, visit The Invisible War’s website.

Raping a woman is not a man’s “right.”  Ever.

trish


NEWS: What If Men’s Reproductive Rights Got Snipped?


With all the vaginal hooplah in Michigan over a proposed bill that limits reproductive rights for women, mainstream media did not make as big a fuss over men’s reproductive rights being put on the chopping block.

Michigan state legislator Barbara Byrum had proposed an amendment to the same House bill that would severely hinder a women’s pro-choice rights in Michigan. However, her amendment was devised to make a point about the sexist misogyny overtaking American politics. She proposed that men would have to provide proof of a medical emergency or that a man’s life was in imminent danger in order for a doctor to perform a vasectomy.

The floor leader gaveled her out of order and refused to let her speak. Apparently, limiting women’s choice to reproduce is okay, but men should not have similar choice restrictions put on their genitals.

Byrum wanted to make a point about the over-reaching legislation of the bill  in question. She protested being censored and released this statement:

“I was ignored by the majority floor leader and not allowed to speak on my amendment which would have held the same standards for men and women when it comes to legal, voluntary procedures in reproductive health and now I am being silenced for standing up for women. This is yet another example of this Republican majority’s misogynistic and cowardly tactics.”

The sad truth is that the narrow-minded GOP in Michigan is only one faction of misogynist oppressors wanting to prohibit female human beings from making basic choices about their lives and their bodies. 2012 is shaping up to be a very important year indeed.

The War On Women wages on…

trish

For more of my personal orgasm journey, read Trish’s Daily O.J.
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DailyOJ 06-13-12: Great Expectations


I got a surprise few days off from motherhood duties this week, and it afforded me some much-needed quality time with my lady’s loins. It’s not that I can’t spend time with them — I do, but not like I really want to with my loud exclamations of pleasure. My orgasms have been in stealth mode, and I’ve been trying to incorporate the stunning energy from a couple of weeks ago — when I was having the spontaneous O’s — with my everyday-pretend-to-be-a-normal-person-and-not-a-sexually-charged-wild-woman charade.

Having to adopt the “responsible mom” persona that is expected of me really puts a damper on that energy, though I discovered that underneath my walls I must put up for polite society, the energy is still very much there, bubbling and brewing well beneath the surface, but still reachable whenever I want it.

With the apartment empty and my downstairs neighbor on vacation, I decided it was time to bring out the purple vibe (sans batteries) and just go for a good ol’ loud session. I noticed that the sensations during arousal were not localized to the genitals but felt more “full” or “filling” throughout the lower abdominal/pelvic area. My abs have started going crazy during arousal and climaxing, but my legs are not shaking. And during the nipple stim/OM orgasms, I invariably turn toward my left side, so I’m assuming this is all more integration of techniques and energy.

The orgasms with the toy were different though. As I wrote earlier, the spontaneous orgasms were “blunt,” and the arousal and orgasms with the toy were, for lack of a better word, blunt. They were “through” me — no clitoral explosion, just riding the wave up, up, up, as it crested, then floating there in the orgasms, and riding it back down. Still delicious, just different.

The orgasms were emotional — I love this kind. This is why I use the toy, to reach the A-spot to trigger the uterine orgasm that is so very deep and personal  and emotional. These orgasms now feel… thorough… like I’ve experienced every feeling imaginable from wanting and horniness, to arousal and raising of energy, through the orgasms, into the emotional recesses of my mind and heart and the deep, inner, primal response of my body, to the throbbing denouement of smaller orgasms, and finally into the blissful purring of satiation.

I feel a little disappointed when I don’t experience this full cycle — the emotion has become very important to my sense of sexual self. Maybe it’s just that time of life because I have been emotional during the day and occasionally at night as I work through things while I face this fork in the road.

Using the toy, my average time from start to finish is about 8 minutes, though I’ve clocked in at 6 minutes a few times, and will go 9 to 11 minutes if I’m being leisurely about it. I’m always surprised by the length of time it actually takes because while it’s happening it seems much longer. In fact, sometimes, I get into some mind noise thinking, “If I were with a guy right now, he’d be getting annoyed this was taking so long.” So then I feel pressure on myself to hurry up and make it happen.

Even though I’m not with a partner right now, I sometimes approach all of this like an athlete in training for the orgasm Olympics. I want to be ready when this dude enters my life. And taking 11 “whole” minutes to climax just might disqualify me from making the final round…

Of course, I’m only half kidding, here. Any man who wouldn’t give me 11 minutes start to finish is not worth my time and energy. And since I will require breast worship and sensual massage and other goodies first, if he’s impatient, he’ll get his ass bounced out the door. And yet, I do get the occasional mind fuzz. “If I take too long, he’ll get bored.” He might get bored anyway since all the good stuff is happening inside where he can’t see… until right before and through the orgasms when it’s rocking and rolling time.

Expectation is the opposite of non-attachment and rooted in competition, adrenaline, yang, testosterone aspects that I’m trying to move out of. I guess this is just another sign that I am a work in progress, as is my sexual awakening.

Aroused and trying to be more yin,

trish

For more of my personal orgasm journey, read Trish’s Daily O.J.
Visit the AW site: Aroused Woman


NEWS: Michigan Lawmaker Reprimanded for Saying “Vagina”


Continuing with the GOP’s #WarOnWomen, the Speaker of the Michigan State Representatives and fellow right-wing conservatives got their knickers in a twist yesterday when Democratic Representative Lisa Brown used the word “vagina” while talking about her proposed amendment to an abortion bill.

After mentioning some controversial points of fact in the Jewish religion that actually support abortion when the life of the mother is affected, Brown went on to say the following:

“I have not asked you to adopt and adhere to my religious beliefs. Why are you asking me to adopt yours? And finally Mr. Speaker, I’m flattered that you’re all so interested in my vagina, but ‘no’ means ‘no.’”

Apparently, the GOP reps didn’t cotton to vile, dirty talk such as the Latin, scientific term, “vagina.” One RWNJ commented, “It was so offensive, I don’t even want to say it in front of women. I would not say that in mixed company.”

Brown was banned from speaking in the following discussion or the following day. Notice, this is now a First Amendment issue — an American citizen’s Freedoms of Speech and Expression are being directly assaulted and prohibited by the government!

At a press conference, Brown said, “If I can’t say the word vagina, why are we legislating vaginas?”

Currently, a protest of this ridiculous GOP tactic his appening on Twitter. If you have a Twitter account, hashtag the word vagina, so we can get it to trend: #vagina.

My response was this:

@AnArousedWoman: @LisaBrown39 Allow me 2 say… #VAGINA VAGINA VAGINA VULVA LABIA CLITORIS. The female body is beautiful, u #GOP h8rs!

Another Tweep summed it up perfectly:

@wakeUpchat: A grown man who is offended by the word Vagina, is not qualified to govern his constituents who have one. #VAGINA

Lisa Brown’s Twitter handle is @LisaBrown39, if you want to follow her. (And of course, mine is @AnArousedWoman. :) ).

Here’s the video of Brown’s speech on the House floor:

trish

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‘Aroused Woman’ BLOG Has New Site Name


Speaking of AW’s new Twitter handle and Facebook page (which all of you should follow and “Like,” respectively!), I should also mention that this blog has a shiny new address as well.

The direct site name is now ArousedWomanBlog.com.  It’s still on WordPress, but this new name is shorter to type and easier to remember than the WP shortlink: http://wp.me/2cu4Y

AND I’m in talks with my branding firm about a radio show devoted to Women’s Rights & Sexuality — everything I write about here on AW blog.  (Yes, I’ll still talk about female orgasm!)

So stay tuned for all the awesomeness that is in the works.  And please share this blog with everyone you know.

The female body is beautiful, and it’s high time we talked about the body and her natural functions and incredible capabilities out in the open like adults.  It’s really the only way we’ll ever earn respect — to respect our selves first.

May the vagina be with you!

trish

For more of my personal orgasm journey, read Trish’s Daily O.J.
Visit the AW site: Aroused Woman


‘Aroused Woman’ Has NEW Twitter Handle


All right, everyone, I really didn’t mean to cause a fuss with the #ff yesterday.

I had just changed my Twitter user name FROM @Aroused_Woman TO @AnArousedWoman, taken from the title of my upcoming book, Confessions of an Aroused Woman.  The underscore in the middle was really annoying me.

Mea culpa!

May the vagina be with you,

trish


NEWS: Republicans Still Waging War on Women – ‘Paycheck Fairness Act’ Dies


The 112th Congress of the United States is really making a name for itself.  The name would be “Misog Y. Nist.”

In the past few months, we’ve witnessed the careful and deliberate dissolution of women’s rights that already exist and the steadfast determination of Right Wing, Christian, Conservative Republicans to further strip women of much-deserved basic, human rights.

Now, the Senate has failed to get S. 3220, the Paycheck Fairness Act, off the ground. The title of S. 3220 is thus:

“A bill to amend the Fair Labor Standards Act of 1938 to provide more effective remedies to victims of discrimination in the payment of wages on the basis of sex, and for other purposes.”

What did the Senate have a problem with?  I can only surmise that “basis of sex, and for other purposes” must have struck fear in the black holes (i.e., hearts) of the GOP.  “Sex” is the Republicans greatest enemy!  Republicans fear sexual gender (women and transgender) and sexually active people (everyone on the planet who’s not a hypocritical Republican, of course).  Without sex and gender being a problem, the Republicans would not have anyone to hate.  Expecting the Republicans to hand out “fairness” to anyone with a vagina — or genitals they use on a regular basis — must have been too much for them to process.  In fact, it seems the only sex that Christian Conservatives approve of is GOP politicians’ illicit sex with hookers, college date rape, and pedophile priests.

Oh, wait.  Discrimination victims of “other purposes” could mean skin color, religion, shape of nose, kinkiness of “foreign” hair, height, weight, looking scary…

Clearly, moving into the 21st century has taken its toll on the GOP.  It was bad enough for upper-class, white Christians to have to sit by black people at a restaurant.  Then women wanted control over their bodies.  Now, everybody wants fairness.  Well, not if the GOP can help it!  And they certainly did everything they could to prevent the Paycheck Fairness Act from getting through.

With a needed vote of 3/5 majority (60 out of 100 Senators), the vote was clearly divided between bleeding heart liberals (52) and RWNJ GOP types (47), with 1 abstention.  The phrase that comes to mind is, “They’re thick as thieves.”  Stealing fairness, like pay equality, from the majority of Americans is a trademark GOP tactic and should be criminal not a daily Congressional activity.

According to Senate.gov, here’s how the voting went.

YEAs —52
Akaka (D-HI)
Baucus (D-MT)
Begich (D-AK)
Bennet (D-CO)
Bingaman (D-NM)
Blumenthal (D-CT)
Boxer (D-CA)
Brown (D-OH)
Cantwell (D-WA)
Cardin (D-MD)
Carper (D-DE)
Casey (D-PA)
Conrad (D-ND)
Coons (D-DE)
Durbin (D-IL)
Feinstein (D-CA)
Franken (D-MN)
Gillibrand (D-NY)
Hagan (D-NC)
Harkin (D-IA)
Inouye (D-HI)
Johnson (D-SD)
Kerry (D-MA)
Klobuchar (D-MN)
Kohl (D-WI)
Landrieu (D-LA)
Lautenberg (D-NJ)
Leahy (D-VT)
Levin (D-MI)
Lieberman (ID-CT)
Manchin (D-WV)
McCaskill (D-MO)
Menendez (D-NJ)
Merkley (D-OR)
Mikulski (D-MD)
Murray (D-WA)
Nelson (D-FL)
Nelson (D-NE)
Pryor (D-AR)
Reed (D-RI)
Rockefeller (D-WV)
Sanders (I-VT)
Schumer (D-NY)
Shaheen (D-NH)
Stabenow (D-MI)
Tester (D-MT)
Udall (D-CO)
Udall (D-NM)
Warner (D-VA)
Webb (D-VA)
Whitehouse (D-RI)
Wyden (D-OR)
NAYs —47
Alexander (R-TN)
Ayotte (R-NH)
Barrasso (R-WY)
Blunt (R-MO)
Boozman (R-AR)
Brown (R-MA)
Burr (R-NC)
Chambliss (R-GA)
Coats (R-IN)
Coburn (R-OK)
Cochran (R-MS)
Collins (R-ME)
Corker (R-TN)
Cornyn (R-TX)
Crapo (R-ID)
DeMint (R-SC)
Enzi (R-WY)
Graham (R-SC)
Grassley (R-IA)
Hatch (R-UT)
Heller (R-NV)
Hoeven (R-ND)
Hutchison (R-TX)
Inhofe (R-OK)
Isakson (R-GA)
Johanns (R-NE)
Johnson (R-WI)
Kyl (R-AZ)
Lee (R-UT)
Lugar (R-IN)
McCain (R-AZ)
McConnell (R-KY)
Moran (R-KS)
Murkowski (R-AK)
Paul (R-KY)
Portman (R-OH)
Reid (D-NV)
Risch (R-ID)
Roberts (R-KS)
Rubio (R-FL)
Sessions (R-AL)
Shelby (R-AL)
Snowe (R-ME)
Thune (R-SD)
Toomey (R-PA)
Vitter (R-LA)
Wicker (R-MS)
Not Voting – 1
Kirk (R-IL)

You’ll notice that this Kirk from Illinois also did not vote on the recent Violence Against Women Act.  I can only guess that he does not want to pass such “fairness” for victims of violence, but come re-election time, he probably does not want it on his record that he voted against VAWA… and now the PFA.  Coward.

trish

For more of my personal orgasm journey, read Trish’s Daily O.J.
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My New Video on YouTube


I put in an application to the Women’s Media Center for an upcoming women’s activist training, and part of the required info was a video of me talking about my stance on Women’s Rights.

I’m a stage person, not a video person, so I don’t have all the fancy equipment to do video.  I had to use my phone (held by my fabulous daughter!).  I’m also still losing my miserable-marriage-weight, so video has been the last thing on my to-do list!

And yet, I’ve been wanting to do a weekly video round-up of news and blog posts but have been too self-conscious.  Maybe now, I just won’t care about what I look like on video and do the weekly vids anyway.

So for what it’s worth, here’s the video of me giving the nutshell version of my stance on why I work for Women’s Rights.

(Eek!)

trish


NEWS: ACLU Chapter in California Seems to Bully Anti-Circumcision Intactivists


According to the Intactivist site, Circumcision and HIV, the local ACLU chapter of Santa Cruz, CA, was in very bad form at a recent Pride parade, and apparently, this isn’t the first time Northern California ACLU chapters have displayed a double standard in protecting civil liberties — particularly protecting the religious freedom rights of parents over the basic civil liberties and human rights of infant boys.

Protecting the United States’ First Amendment is the cornerstone of my writing and music.  I find it unconscionable to see the ACLU’s Northern California and Santa Cruz affiliates and others putting some people’s religious beliefs ABOVE infant boys’ pro-choice rights to their bodies.

If someone wanted to take a slice out of my body or my daughter’s, the ACLU would stand behind my right to my body and her right to hers.  I doubt the ACLU would support the stoning of a woman because she had premarital sex — a stoning dictated by a misogynist religious mandate.  And yet, the circumcision of newborn boys is a perfectly acceptable religious mandate?

Believe it or not, there are growing numbers of Jewish groups that oppose circumcision, so not all Jews approve of such orthodox misogyny and misguided body mutilation.

Why would any person or group support the physical and sexual abuse of defenseless infant boys by putting religion over the child’s right to his body?  Is this a case in which the Orwellian adage rings true: “All animals are equal… but some animals are more equal than others”? Since this body mutilation occurs on the penis, which is necessary for reproduction later in his life, isn’t circumcision a violation of the boy’s reproductive rights as well?

Every American baby boy has inherent, inalienable, protected rights including his First Amendment right to Freedom of Religion.  Since he is only days old when the scalpel-happy doctor and religious fanatic parents are wanting to permanently modify and potentially permanently harm his newborn body, the baby boy cannot say what HIS religion is yet — if he even wants to participate in his parents’ religion that mandates this mutilation.

The baby boy does not have a voice.  Except for us activists — intactivists!

Contact these ACLU branches and use YOUR freedom of speech to speak out against the ACLU protecting adults over innocent babies: ACLU-Northern California: (415) 621-2493, and ACLU-Santa Cruz:  info@aclusantacruz.org.  Tweet them @ACLU and @ACLU_NorCal or find them on Facebook to let them know this is NOT acceptable for an organization supposedly devoted to protecting civil liberties for ALL.

I want to be proud of the ACLU again.  So ACLU-Northern California and ACLU-Santa Cruz need to do the right thing and protect baby boys from religious extremism.

trish

For more of my personal orgasm journey, read Trish’s Daily O.J.
Visit the AW site: Aroused Woman


DailyOJ 05-26-12, Part 2: Cycles, Dreams, & Cosmic Bliss


* Read Part 1 here. *

On the plus side, I wasn’t comparing it to anything else.  Maybe because I’m female doing KSMO, or because I was using OM touch as my caress, but what I’m experiencing is not how I perceive what others (men) doing KSMO have experienced.  I’m just exploring it as it is.

I’ve also noticed that my dreams have been synchronistic with my goals and metaphorical dreams.  My REM-sleep dreams have been particularly… mine… and about my future.  I feel my shamanic dreams are coming back.

I’ve also noticed that I’ve needed a lot less sleep lately.  When I go to bed, I’m not really tired.  When I wake up, I don’t have a sluggish feeling or just having awakened feeling.  It’s as if it’s one continuous circle/cycle rather than an awake — go through the day — end of day — sleep — dream — wake up — lather, rinse, repeat… A natural life flow, as Jack called it.

And as I was explaining to a friend on Twitter earlier, it’s like I’m swimming in this flow of higher vibrational energy.  I don’t have to “get” aroused because I’m already there.  If I want an orgasm, I turn the ceiling fan on.   Or just think the word “orgasm.”  BAM!  A big, full-body O hits wherever I am — spontaneous orgasm combustion while trying to work.  Walking down the street has been difficult(!).  It’s cool to be able to just think an orgasm — not think about a long scene to get in the mood — just think it, and SHAZAM!  There it is… there they are.  It’s really awesome.

Jack hinted that I can now actively, purposely spin the energy into something bigger.  My orgasms of late have had the feeling of being expansive, or being bigger than me, but being from me and in every part of me — not just the genitals.

Recently, I have found myself sometimes taking the observer/watcher mode during arousal and even during the orgasms… wondering (even fretting) about what I look like during orgasm, what I sound like… I can’t prepare for it.  When the first O hits, there is no warning… it’s just THERE!

But I don’t want to get into the trap of playing mind games.  Mind noise / mind games are societal, cultural, even religious bullshit, in my opinion.  To help get me out of my head, Jack suggested I think of my self and my orgasms as “here” rather than from “there” (from a specific part of my anatomy) or as if I’m going “there.”  This reminded me of a popular modern witch bumper sticker: “We are everywhere.”  We — witches: wise women — are indeed everywhere.  And in my current experiences with my expansive, cosmic orgasms, I am even more sure that I am plugged in to true universal connectedness.

This brought up a memory of reading the definition of Woman in OSHO’s Tantra teachings — Woman as everywhere but formless until she joins with Man.  I didn’t like it the first time I read it because of the implication of Woman getting her identity from man, but I’m understanding it more… (I still don’t “like” it.)

I have noticed that since I’m more aware of pronoun usage in my writing — saying my clitoris instead of the clitoris, my breasts, my prostate, loving her instead of it, has helped me integrate me and my parts into a whole that is ME.  Going inside myself has opened me up to the everything that is everywhere… a very amazing feeling…. not overwhelming (yet).

Jack then threw out some more words o’ wisdom saying, “Your orgasm doesn’t come from man, they come from within you, and from Cosmos, Goddess (add all you like here who inspire…) through you.”

And THAT brought it all home for me.  THAT is exactly what these orgasms have been like — happening THROUGH me!  Similar to my awake/sleep cycle and my constant higher vibrational state/access to orgasms, these orgasms feel as if they are already there, already happening, I just decided to turn the switch on and enjoy a few — or a few hours of them.  There isn’t a manual process of “start stimulation — raise arousal — have orgasm — end.”  I’m already in the energy.  I live there.  It’s ready whenever I decide to jump into the stream of conscious-orgasmness.  I’m just turning in, tuning in.

I’m so very grateful that I’ve received these experiences that I wasn’t expecting.  It really brings home the importance and the usefulness of the non-attachment / no expectation mindset/approach.

Jack agreed, saying, “The BIGGEST stuff often tends to come through when you’re not expecting it (consciously)… because that’s when all of your alter-consciousness inner allies have a chance to whisper their teachings to you!”

And this is so very true, of course.  I’ve been thinking a lot about my future.  Seems I’m at another fork in the road.  I’ve also been thinking about a lot of possibilities for my future with a partner.  But all of that in due time.  I’m taking these experiences one orgasm at a time, one self-truth at a time, one chunk of enlightenment at a time.  It’s really all I can process right now.

Bliss is an energy, and it can be accessed without a partner or even without any physical stimulation at all — as I’ve learned IN SPADES this week.  The “wheel” /cycle continues on… And at least, I can’t get pregnant from a ceiling fan.

Aroused, streaming, and dreaming,

trish

For more of my personal orgasm journey, read Trish’s Daily O.J.
Visit the AW site: Aroused Woman


DailyOJ 05-26-12, Part 1: Spontaneous Full-Body Kundalini Orgasms


So to fill in… As I wrote in the DailyOJ for 05-21-12, that was a KSMO day, and it was grande!  Today was also my only KSMO session this week (or since!).  My schedule has been totally weird, as you’ll soon read.

After a 2 month break from KSMO, I had returned to the 20-minute protocol about twice per week, trying to get in as many KSMO practices and my usual loud solo sex sessions as I could before I was no longer home by myself during the days.  (School would soon be out for summer, but with my daughter on a week-long trip, I had the house to myself 24/7!!)

Since beginning with OM explorations — which is also a “turn it down a notch to turn it ON and WAY UP” practice specifically for women, I have incorporated OM touch into my KSMO practice…  To splendiferous effect!

So back to this week’s experiences…

Today, I began the 20-minute KSMO session. A few Key Sounds into it, I decided to use the OM touch for my caress — thinking it’s such a small, barely there touch, it’s okay because it’s not “stimulating” in the usual sense. Man, was I wrong!  After 2 OM flicks, I full body orgasmed during my KSMO session.  I didn’t mean to, honest!  Having an orgasm during the 20-minute KSMO or the 15-minute OM practice is not the intent of these re-wiring methods.  (Orgasms are for actual solo/partner sex.) Both OM and KSMO seem to re-wire the body on a much deeper level than the superficial jerking/frigging off the genitals way most people learn to masturbate (and then bring into their partnered sex life).

But without warning or intention, I did orgasm.  I had a full-body O right then at the beginning of the session, all head-thrown-back, spine-arched, toes-curled, Kundalini style.  I finished the KSMO part (about 18 minutes), and then did my solo thang.  (Which was amazing.)

Since then — all week, I have experienced spontaneous O’s at all times of the day, evening, night.  I can think, “That was a great orgasm earlier,” and BOOM!  A full-body orgasm hits.  And often, I don’t even have to think that — it just happens.

The slightest brush of my nipples — I mean, not really touching, the barest of bare caresses with the tips of my fingertips — and I’m in kundalini O’s…. okay… I’m higher griping… but thank the gods I work from home.  These deskgasms are too good to pass up.

My body is so re-wired now that she is hyper-sensitive to even the air going across from the ceiling fan.  Orgasms spontaneously erupt.  I even started having these full-body O’s from the fan’s air current across my breasts.  I have been staying in bed till 1 and 2 in the afternoon enjoying this.  And I can keep it going for hours.  The feelings are indescribable.  (But I’ll try.)

The orgasms are like a rush of an energy wave through my body — not exactly starting in my feet or my genitals, it happens so fast and is so thorough, I practically feel it everywhere at once, but the waves keep hitting and expanding outward in all directions.  My lower abs have been going crazy during these orgasms — though my only ab work is during sex. :)  The puckering in my areolas is so strong, my nipples feel like they’re pulling my body up off the bed.  My body is contorted in all directions — no,this doesn’t hurt. :)  Feels incredible, actually.

As I’ve explained in other blog post(s), it’s not the same as orgasms that are hands-on the genitals — these are different, but O so powerful!  And talk about “less” stimulation needed — try practically NONE!  I am SO glad I threw my vibrator in the dumpster.  I would have never experienced any of this while my body was deadened to the media/porn culture’s lies about needing vibration for “better,” “stronger” orgasms.  Bullshit!  (I encourage every woman to put the vibe down, and go off the battery band wagon!)

What’s “disturbed” me in yet another “higher gripe” way is that when I enter my vagina to stimulate my prostate — which has all the bells and whistles of arousal going, I don’t stay there.  WHAT?!  I know!  ME?!  NOT playing in Prostate Town?

I’ve been going back to the 1 or 2 barely there OM/clit strokes or letting the air on my breasts, and the O’s hit.  However many I want in succession.  And I feel satisfied.  I don’t need to go for an all-hands-on-deck sporting event.  (Though, those ARE fun!)  Feeling “satisfied” is not a feeling I have much experience with sexually or in life — I have always had yearnings of bigger, better things.  Feeling “satisfaction” is new and yet profound of many levels.

In talking with Jack, the discoverer of KSMO, I asked him “Okay, so, what do I do now?”

Essentially, he said I was now an “Adept.”  (No, the title does not come with a gold watch.)  But I am now completely free to explore the energy and sensations as I choose — which is good because I kind of always did what I wanted to anyway.  I know — what a shock.

I was concerned because these O’s I’m having don’t have the hot/explosion that others describe — the Big Bang I experience happens very suddenly and very strong and is “blunt” not “sharp” as I associate the other Adepts’ big orgasms.  Mine are powerful, but it feels like I own the power.  Even as I am learning about my body’s orgasmic capabilities and even though I’m in the non-attachment mindset, I am in control.  It’s not like I’m at its mercy.  Which I think was my fear last Fall when my prostate awakened, and it was SO very powerful it kind of freaked me out.  Being totally willing to die in orgasm kinda resets your priorities — especially as a parent.

Jack suggested I just breathe and in-joy.  (He likes to re-interpret words we use every day so we see them in a new light… It’s pretty cool, actually.)  He also mentioned that I might allow more of the inner quiet to resonate — to see what I can learn from it.  I am so much better now about not letting the mind noise interfere.  I can tell it is making a difference to let my body lead the experience — like when I kept stopping stimulation during a solo session, and I have no idea why, but the results were astounding, so I’ve kept that bit in my “routine.”

* Read Part 2 here. *

Aroused and spontaneously combusting,

trish

For more of my personal orgasm journey, read Trish’s Daily O.J.
Visit the AW site: Aroused Woman


KSMO – A Brief Explanation


KSMO is a practice I used to do.  I no longer do KSMO and haven’t done it in over a year.

I have since focused my orgasmic process on a Tantric and Kundalini practice, and I am creating my own orgasm training program based on these ancient methodologies combined with modern findings in sexuality and several metaphysical modalities.

trish

For more of my personal orgasm journey, read Trish’s Daily O.J.
Visit the AW site: Aroused Woman


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