DailyOJ 05-26-12, Part 2: Cycles, Dreams, & Cosmic Bliss


* Read Part 1 here. *

On the plus side, I wasn’t comparing it to anything else.  Maybe because I’m female or because I was using a small caress, but what I’m experiencing is not how I perceive what others (men) have experienced.  I’m just exploring it as it is.

I’ve also noticed that my dreams have been synchronistic with my goals and metaphorical dreams.  My REM-sleep dreams have been particularly… mine… and about my future.  I feel my shamanic dreams are coming back.

I’ve also noticed that I’ve needed a lot less sleep lately.  When I go to bed, I’m not really tired.  When I wake up, I don’t have a sluggish feeling or just having awakened feeling.  It’s as if it’s one continuous circle/cycle rather than an awake — go through the day — end of day — sleep — dream — wake up — lather, rinse, repeat… A natural life flow, as Jack called it.

And as I was explaining to a friend on Twitter earlier, it’s like I’m swimming in this flow of higher vibrational energy.  I don’t have to “get” aroused because I’m already there.  If I want an orgasm, I turn the ceiling fan on.   Or just think the word “orgasm.”  BAM!  A big, full-body O hits wherever I am — spontaneous orgasm combustion while trying to work.  Walking down the street has been difficult(!).  It’s cool to be able to just think an orgasm — not think about a long scene to get in the mood — just think it, and SHAZAM!  There it is… there they are.  It’s really awesome.

Jack hinted that I can now actively, purposely spin the energy into something bigger.  My orgasms of late have had the feeling of being expansive, or being bigger than me, but being from me and in every part of me — not just the genitals.

Recently, I have found myself sometimes taking the observer/watcher mode during arousal and even during the orgasms… wondering (even fretting) about what I look like during orgasm, what I sound like… I can’t prepare for it.  When the first O hits, there is no warning… it’s just THERE!

But I don’t want to get into the trap of playing mind games.  Mind noise / mind games are societal, cultural, even religious bullshit, in my opinion.  To help get me out of my head, Jack suggested I think of my self and my orgasms as “here” rather than from “there” (from a specific part of my anatomy) or as if I’m going “there.”  This reminded me of a popular modern witch bumper sticker: “We are everywhere.”  We — witches: wise women — are indeed everywhere.  And in my current experiences with my expansive, cosmic orgasms, I am even more sure that I am plugged in to true universal connectedness.

This brought up a memory of reading the definition of Woman in OSHO’s Tantra teachings — Woman as everywhere but formless until she joins with Man.  I didn’t like it the first time I read it because of the implication of Woman getting her identity from man, but I’m understanding it more… (I still don’t “like” it.)

I have noticed that since I’m more aware of pronoun usage in my writing — saying my clitoris instead of the clitoris, my breasts, my prostate, loving her instead of it, has helped me integrate me and my parts into a whole that is ME.  Going inside myself has opened me up to the everything that is everywhere… a very amazing feeling…. not overwhelming (yet).

Jack then threw out some more words o’ wisdom saying, “Your orgasm doesn’t come from man, they come from within you, and from Cosmos, Goddess (add all you like here who inspire…) through you.”

And THAT brought it all home for me.  THAT is exactly what these orgasms have been like — happening THROUGH me!  Similar to my awake/sleep cycle and my constant higher vibrational state/access to orgasms, these orgasms feel as if they are already there, already happening, I just decided to turn the switch on and enjoy a few — or a few hours of them.  There isn’t a manual process of “start stimulation — raise arousal — have orgasm — end.”  I’m already in the energy.  I live there.  It’s ready whenever I decide to jump into the stream of conscious-orgasmness.  I’m just turning in, tuning in.

I’m so very grateful that I’ve received these experiences that I wasn’t expecting.  It really brings home the importance and the usefulness of the non-attachment / no expectation mindset/approach.

Jack agreed, saying, “The BIGGEST stuff often tends to come through when you’re not expecting it (consciously)… because that’s when all of your alter-consciousness inner allies have a chance to whisper their teachings to you!”

And this is so very true, of course.  I’ve been thinking a lot about my future.  Seems I’m at another fork in the road.  I’ve also been thinking about a lot of possibilities for my future with a partner.  But all of that in due time.  I’m taking these experiences one orgasm at a time, one self-truth at a time, one chunk of enlightenment at a time.  It’s really all I can process right now.

Bliss is an energy, and it can be accessed without a partner or even without any physical stimulation at all — as I’ve learned IN SPADES this week.  The “wheel” /cycle continues on… And at least, I can’t get pregnant from a ceiling fan.

Aroused, streaming, and dreaming,

trish

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